Pedestal of Success – The beginning of my Journey

Published February 4, 2015 by kairikainfsb3

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In life, there are obstacles we all must face from a small stride to large jumps. We think to ourselves “What did I do to deserve this?” or “Why is this happening?” thoughts that follow us from birth (Yes, Birth) to now. I use to run around my grandmother’s garden stomping on all the weeds so they wouldn’t hurt her vegetables and make the garden look untidy for I thought this will help the plants to grow. Those plants in my mind had obstacles that they needed to get around, and I helped them.

I’m now an adult in my mid 20’s and like the young girl helping the plants she needs to do that again but for herself as a grown adult. For now I have a beautiful young daughter named Robin born January 24th, 2014. Robin is my world, and one of our goals is to show Robin the world and go on adventures with her. I owe my beautiful daughter for what comes next for if It weren’t for her I would not have kicked myself in the butt like I should have years ago. I pushed myself to become better than I was and become who I am not what I thought I was. I forced myself to go back to college and earn my degree in Psychology so I could help those around me with their obstacles and their challenges.

University-of-PhoenixI enrolled at the University of Phoenix Online and in as little as three weeks I’m now on my way to earning that degree and providing for my family and myself. I spoke to an amazing woman during my acceptance process and still talk to her now. She first asked me the most important question of my life, and it brought me to question my degree choice in a positive way. I originally went to be a Business women whether it was a manager, CEO or owning a business of my own thinking that it was my calling and what I was destined to do. Two years into my program something terrible in my life happened everything came to a dead stop. I had dropped out of college to care for my now ex-boyfriend and did not want to resume my degree after his recovery when my heart/mind was not in it. The question Nicole asked me was this “Do you want to start where you left off with the Business?” It may seem like a simple question and a minor one but to me it was the icing on the cake. I realized that business is not my true calling, and it wasn’t something I wanted to do it was something I chose right out of high school because I was pressured into going to college. So my answer to her was NO.

look Now I’m enrolled like I mentioned before doing something that I’m not only passionate about but something that I also enjoy doing. I’m going for my Bachelors of Science in Psychology and with this degree I will then pursue Social work and Child/Family services. I’m going to push myself when I need to be pushed, Coach myself when I need to be coached; dump a bucket of water on my head when I start thinking it’s too hard and I can’t do it. I CAN DO IT, and it MAY be hard and I MAY want to go play video games but I’m reaching my goal and gosh darn it I’m going to get to it this time! I’m going to leave that school big smile on my face and Diploma in hand. I’m going to Win this time!

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3 comments on “Pedestal of Success – The beginning of my Journey

  • Hi Kai.. this was very nice and well written….I do know what the terrible thing was that make you drop out of school before.. but I know how that feels… I was a Junior at UMA-Bangor Campus… I had to decide whether to finish my degree or to be a caregiver for my sister who was dying of cancer… I tried for a while to do both but one of them had to go and it was a no brainer… my brother in law and I took turns taking of my sister.. we took 12 hour shifts 24/7 for over a year… before that he and I stayed with my sister thru 3 surgerys and lots of other issues… so I know how life can get in the way… I never went back to finish my degree so I am very happy that you have gone back to get yours……..

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      • OMG Kai.. can you imagine being blamed for a tumor !!!! Why do things like this happen… I am sorry that you had to suffer the abuse you did for something that you did not do…. it is no wonder that you are so sensitive to verbal abuse now…. who wouldn’t be!!! But you have grown and continue to grow with each day…..

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